Today!

I had plans to go with my friend Debra to church this morning at the church we were members of for over 20 years. Things did not work out for me. I think I am superwoman sometimes and can do anything. I decided no hill was too big for me to conquer on the riding mower yesterday and had to hold on very tight several times to keep from sliding off the thing. That put a strain on my back and I had some pain last night, as I am still having this morning. I miss the people at that church, and this morning just missing going to church anywhere. I have been sitting here listening to some Gospel music, and some of the older songs speak to me more. My Mommy and Daddy went to sleep listening to the Chuck Wagon Gang every night. They had about 6 albums, and I see that old record player and Daddy stacking them on. One would play, and the other would drop down and play. This continued until they all played and the record player cut off on its on. This was a fancy one now that I think about it. Music was important in our home, and I am glad that I still have a love for the good old Gospel music I was listening to as a little girl. What A Friend We Have In Jesus, this was a song I remember singing a lot. Sweet Hour Of Prayer, The Old Rugged Cross, When We All Get To Heaven, and I could name many, many more. Listening to the words of these faithful songs truly brought me to a place of worshipping my Jesus this morning. Thinking of how he left the splendor of Heaven, knowing his destiny, was the lonely hill of Golgotha, there he laid down his life for me. That is love! A love that reaches from the highest mountain, flows to the deepest ocean. All our sins and griefs to bear, what a friend we have in Jesus. What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer. All these words to the songs still apply to us today. No matter how old we get, no matter how sick we get, or how tired, we must remember that Jesus loves us, he is there for us, and died for us. He came and took all my horrible sins upon himself and paid a price I could not pay, so that I can live a life I do not deserve in Heaven for eternity. I just want to honor and worship my Lord today. I just want to praise who he is, and show him I love him, and thank him for his love for me. Just listen to some good music, listen to his love for you today!

Trying to Decide Who I Am?

I have been really looking at people, and the way they live trying to decide who I am. I thought I was a redneck, or maybe just a country girl, but I know now I am neither. I lived in the city, but I know I am not a city girl either. I grew up in small town Mississippi, and I think that is who I am, just a small town girl. I want to try and explain who each one of these people are in my mind, and I love all people, so I am not saying there is something wrong with anyone. I think when your raised in a small town, and have friends from all areas of life, you have the privilege of being able to fit in anywhere. Country people always have cows, a garden, chickens, and their little boys hair is always cut real short. I do not have any of those items, and my boys hair was never real short, so I do not fit into that category, but when I am at my Aunt's house I love to ride through the cow pasture, feed the chickens at my son's house, and those little boys are as cute as they can be. City people are never barefoot, always have their make-up on, and their yards are usually very manicured. I do like to go barefooted, I will go to the store without my make-up, and my grass tends to get a little high. Now redneck people, who if you talk to me you would swear I am one, have a few traits that always shine. They can usually chew, dip, or smoke while eating and drinking. As I have been driving through the country a lot lately I have seen several things that I would classify as a true sign that you are a redneck. The first one was seeing people with their working deep freeze on their front porches. Now Mommy would never have allowed this, nor would I want that. Do you not think their power bills in the summer are really high? I am sure in this heat and humidity it never quits running. In the winter the bills might go down some, heck they may not even have to plug it in on some days! Another sign to me is when you have more furniture in your front yard than u probably have in your house, or maybe they just have several recliners, and couches, plus an extra dining room set. One thing a friend told me about and I looked when I went by, was a new add-on to someones house. They parked a storage building next to the house, and I mean next too it, made a door opening and now they have their new add-on. That is redneck for sure!!! I will have to give my friend a hard time, because he knows he is a redneck, but a sure sign for me is that his house is pink, his mailbox and truck are camouflage, and only a REAL REDNECK, would be comfortable with that! As for me I am for sure just a small town girl, with the talent to be country, city, redneck, or whatever when needed!! How about you???

Thoughts!!!

I was sitting here thinking about what brings people to mind. It is strange to me, but every time I go to my kitchen sink and look out the window at the woods, my Daddy comes to mind. I miss Daddy, I miss him terribly. I know we can not go back and spend more time with them, and we should never have regrets, and for the most part I don't. I would like for one more time to sit down and talk with Daddy and really listen. I know Daddy told me the answers to the questions I have about family, and WWII, which Daddy was a proud Marine, but I have forgotten, or as I said I didn't listen well enough. My Daddy had the answers to everything I needed to know! Daddy liked where we built our house, and I know if his health had been better he would have spent more time out here sitting and looking at those woods out my kitchen window. He had always wanted to live out in the woods again, as he did when he was a little boy. I ask God to hug Daddy for me today. I think of Mommy at crazy times it seems. Mommy has been so long, for over 20 years. OK, tears are coming to my eyes. As much as I miss Daddy he got to know all of his Great-grandchildren except Aubrie. Mommy never saw my boys grow up, never knew any of the girls. Toby was in the second grade when she went to be with the Lord. I am blessed to have had the parents I had. They were very loving, and Christians. I feel alone a lot, and have throughout the past few years. I know I am not, and how blessed I am to have my wonderful family. God blessed me with more than I could ever have dreamed of, or deserved, but what I am saying is, I wish I had my Mom to go shopping with, to cook with, and to just spend time with. I have no sisters, or even cousins that I am close to. My Aunt, Mom's sister lives a good way from me, well the one I am close to. Neither of her sisters are able to get out anymore and do things with me. The person I was closest to for many, many years decided one day not to be my friend anymore, but you know she has a daughter, and her Mom, which I try not to be jealous of, but I guess I am. My best friend in the whole world lives 10 hrs from me, and when we are together it is just wonderful, but its hard when you only see her once a year, or twice. I know I am never alone, Jesus is always with me, but if you have someone to do things with, your Mom, your Dad, do not ignore them. Spend time with them. Thank God that you have them each morning you wake up. Hug them real tight, and listen to them, you will wish you could ask one more question someday.

Life, As God Wants For All Of Us!!

What does each day hold for us? In God's word he tells us he will never leave us nor forsake us. I totally believe God's word. Faith in his word and through prayers I know each day can be as God wants it for us, full and abundant. Each day holds what God has planned for me and you. The answer to what is planned is in his word. I am saying this because I am so lacking in my time with God lately. I sit here thinking about all the things that need doing, and the things I seem to never get done. Lazy, or tired? Where is the difference? Looking out the window at the beauty of nature, the flowers in bloom, the green of the grass and trees, and the clear blue of the sky, I realize that God's love is in everything we see each day. In the faces of my grandchildren, in the smiles of people I do not even know, in my husbands eyes, and in my boys concern for my health. Things do not always look good here, but God didn't tell us to be thankful for all things, he said be thankful IN all things. I began to see the difference. The coach's daughter had a bad wreck this past week, no her family is not thankful for the wreck, but thankful she survived. You may ask what if she had not, then her family has the peace of knowing she was a Christian, and the second our life stops here, she would be in the present of Jesus. I want to live the life he has given me here on earth, showing others God's love through my actions, and giving God all the Glory for it. It is only through his love, and mercy that he has given me. Lord I know I do not do everything you want me to in my daily walk, but I ask you right now to show me through your word what you would have me do everyday. "Let others see Jesus in you, keeping telling the story, be faithful and true, Let others see Jesus in you", these words to a song I remember singing as a little girl, should be what I pray for each day. Thank you Lord for bringing them to my mind again. As I get ready for some medical test over the next few weeks, I want to remember that I take the time to have these test, I can certainly take the time to read my Lord's word, and talk to him. I challenge you to do the same! I heard a preacher say one time, and this is not exactly as he said it, but similar, "we have enough time in each day to do gracefully what God wants us to do". How much of our day are we wasting sitting around not listening to God, but to self? God forgive me, and use me today.